伤害

一年多了，我真的该放弃了吗？他对我的伤害够多了，可是我却没办法忘记那些回忆，跟他一起的回忆，这一年来，我都没有想过要放弃那个人，可是我知道他真的在等一个人后，我真的很难过，想要放弃，可是我办得到吗？:( 

I can only share these matters at here, bcause I doubt, nobody would read my blogger, xixixi :p  so I just share it with typing, better than I keep it in my heart, it hurts me so much .. actually I need somebody to share my problems and I need them to comfort me, I need it so much .. not only about this

I also sad about my friendship, I knew the truth already and it huuuuuuuurrrtttssss me even deep. He lied to me, the other one, misunderstand me, I can stand it, because it's only a small matter for me, and I can understand his feeling, he wanted to be with someone he likes, I understand that, so, it doesn't matter. am I really annoying person to them? I am a really big big big big jinx for everyone. 

很烦啊！

都三个月了，我还是没办法忘记那些事，真的很烦啊！ 我知道原因了，我好生气哦，非常的生气，如果他们真的不想跟我去，就说啊！我真的很。。。。 我闹了很多事，是不是啊朋友们？那么傻的我，还跟他说一声 ‘ 对不起 ’我又没有做错事情，干吗跟他们道歉。 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! 后悔死了！！！ 烦到要死了，我再也不想跟他说话了！SHIT BOY! 你以为你很厉害吗？你根本不像我们的老大，不配，懂吗？？？二零一二。。 huh!! you give me bad bad bad luck! 

IF ..

heyy, come back with me again today! :D I got something to share with you guys. hahaha.. I'm going to go to Singapore .. maybe on 8th or maybe on 9th .. actually I was planning to go to the Universal, but nobody could accompany me. huhu.. my sister, she has to go to her school actually my friends ask me to go, but I don't know I could join them or not, they're going there on 11th but 12th, I'll be going home with my sister, do you know, 13th is Chinese Mother's Day, I need to accompany my mother .. how I wish I could go there for 1 week.:( I need more holidaaayyy, not staying at home. huhu. okaayy, I'm not going to tell you about this again, hahaha, because this isn't the topic I want to share. hahhaa.


2 weeks ago, I was chatting with somebody, who I hated last time, but now? no more.. I really can't understand it, how could he express his feeling to me ? gosh .. I just told him I have already loves someone else. I feeeeeeeeeeeel very guilty towards him. huhu .. I'm really really really sorrryyy .
I told my friend, who I called as " ko " about this. hahha, and also the misterius boy I always tell you about him.. hahaha.. he told me so many advice, not so many actually, hhaha. I told that misterius boy " I won't accept him, because I have someone else. " actually he's the one who I call " someone else " but seems that he doesn't know it. it would be so great If he knew about this, how much I like him for this 1 year. no hope already :( hahaha. maybe he's just like me, he has someone else, but he doesn't tell me about that, it's just my feeling .. I'm happy to see him using laugh emoticon when I'm chatting with him . I love it .. vey much ..

silly him .. Oh gosh .. how If .. :( I said I'll forget him but till now.... useless .. huhu. 1 year .. not so long actually. people keep saying it's too long and maybe I have to give up, they don't know how this feeling is .. they're just like when you say " forget " and then forget already, If I could, no longer sadness now . I really hope he knows about this .. it's very important for me.. really .. I still remember when I was sad because of him, and I destroy my handmade, my little panda, I regret it really much ..
sometimes, when he doesn't reply my message, it huuuuurrtsss me so much .. so deep! huhu :(
end till here yey! If I have something to tell you, readers, I will share it to you all. Goodnight all bloggers and Readers :D